She-story

The story of Sujina S Babu….

A differently abled girl who created a difference.

Even after all this time, the candle never said to darkness, ‘You owe me’. Look what happens in a romance like that. The candle burns itself to illuminate the darkness with the light of warmth and affection. As I stand ready to take charge as the custodian for the world of tomorrow, what leaves me bereft is the stark realisation that even after all these years rolled by, man’s perspective is overshadowed by several indigestible social taboos. The hard fact is that many are sidetracked by those who are not even in the track. Certain hurdles in this race called ‘Life’ are so formidable that some people collapse even at the sight of it. However strong he might be, sometimes, an unexpected blow in life can just simply blow out the fire within him. From the time you are being knit in your mother’s womb to the time you drop into your grave, life hands you good and bad times; they mould you into what you are. The lessons that life teaches will turn out to be the strongest weapon one day or the other. Indeed, ‘experience’, that is the main ingredient that sets each one of us apart. Yes this is my story, my journey. How?What?Why?

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Believe in Yourself : BE YOU

Believe is a powerful word. The word possess power only when you believe it. So the real power lies in the believer and that’s YOU.

If you believe that you can achieve your goal, then congrats, you are halfway there in achieving it.

You don’t have to fake. Be yourself. Embrace your imperfections. Speak confidently. Be courageous.

You may think it’s not an easy task, but once you gain the courage to start, then you will say, “Never thought it’s too easy.”

Start today, to invest in your-self and to believe in yourself.

Have sparkles in your day.

Peace out.

A HAIRCUT THAT CHANGED ME.

On the second year of my college, I decided to donate my hair for economically poor cancer patients. I had long thick black wavy hair which everyone in campus admired.

I wasn’t sure about my look after the haircut, will it look good or bad? Something inside told me, you must donate your hair . I gave 30 cm of my hair and felt so good. But it never looked good. The tomboy style was horrible and was not my kind of style.

But, to be honest, I never regret about it. My friends were angry at me for not consulting with them earlier. They thought I took a bad decision because my looks went horribly weird. Some of them congratulated me for taking such a brave decision despite the fact I look worse. Some felt pity for me.

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After some months, my hair gained some more length and guess what? I looked dashing. People told me that I looked never better. They appreciate my decision of donating my hair. Some told me, its a blessing since I have done a good deed.

I never intentionally changed my look. All I wanted to do was to donate my hair. I knew my parents would oppose, friends may warn, but my guts told me to do it. I listened to my inner self. Even if people told me I look horrible with my hair gone, I never felt sad. Later that same people complimented once I started looking stunning. I felt happy but I can’t take the credit for it.

I have a beautiful soul; what I looked outside is the reflection of you. Beauty lies in the eyes of beholder. If you have something to do with your life, do it. BREAK THE WALL AND GO GET THE HIDDEN TREASURE.

Peace out.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Love v/s Lust

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” Why don’t you accept my love?” , he asked her.

” It’s not love.”, she replied.

“Then what is it?” he scorned.

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“It’s lust. I can read it from your eyes. You don’t love me for what I am, you want my body. And I ain’t that type of girl. I’M A WOMAN WITH CLASS.”

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Be a gentleman 🙂

From the dumbest student to an author; my journey.

“Who’s the dumbest student in class?”

My teacher raised this question, in a second standard class room on a gloomy evening. I don’t know what her intention was, but I’m pretty sure the whole class pointed towards a girl in white shirt and navy skirt, and monotonically said, ” She is .”  

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Well, I remember people calling me dumb. Surely I admit now that, I was .

For me, life was always confusing.

The one major reason for this is because that I come from a dysfunctional family. My parents were having their own fights while I was growing up as a child. I had no friends. I was never able to start a conversation with someone and was poor in academics for obvious reasons.

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My childhood bend me till I broke. I never framed my behavior because whenever I looked at myself, I was looking at shattered pieces of my image. I failed to develop self esteem. I was in pain and cried in vain. This fumes of rejections, embarrassments and rebukes burned inside me and it exploded into anger.

But I was never happy. I ended up hurting myself all the time. I thought impressing people might help me and I became too servile. Never learned to say ‘NO’ and never learned to smile genuinely.

Later I figured out, I have maladaptive behavior or a serious condition of involuntary daydreaming. This was my defensive mechanism to elope from day-to-day life, so that I can be happy in my own world. I was constantly dreaming about a  world in which I am not crucified. I dreamed of success as everyone else does it, though mine was a psychological condition to do so.

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But the good part of this was that my dreams began to grow gigantically and its roots penetrated deep into my mind. They echoed I will win. For some reasons, I believed I will win. Sooner or later I realized I’m on my way to winning.

But the journey was not easy. I have realized many things on this short speck of time. I realized the only person who can save me is myself since no one else care. I stopped impressing people and started to love myself. I have realized self-love and self-care go hand in hand. I took a oath to nurture myself, both internally and externally. I began to seek my inner self, to fill the void I was carrying the whole time. I began reading all those self-motivating books to heal my wounds. It helped. I became more assertive. The self affirmations gave me power. I started to write down things which were loud in my head. I began to travel more. I began to repair in myself than to see the fault in others. I began to see happiness. It came to seek me! I felt ecstasy, which I swear I only felt once, inside the womb of my mother.

Let me specify once more, the journey was not easy. It taught me many things on the way.  I was not courageous, fear haunted me all the way. I was scared of the cliche thought, ” What will people think?”

Then I learned, people never think of others, they make opinions about others according to their conveniences. And who cares about opinions since everybody talk some random sh*t.

I have learned many harsh truths like these. These lessons hit me at different times, from different persons and I still bear those scars of memory proudly. It reminds myself that I possess a valiant soul.

There were people and circumstances which sowed negativity on my path. I thank them because I learned to tackle negativity. Some days I lose hope and curse my past. But somehow the universe conspires me to go ahead and show the world that, ” I have got some guts”. It maybe any person, a quote, a book, a movie or a song that catches my attention or do they attract me? Anyhow they inspires me to outgrew my cocoon of shyness and fear. So, I can finally metamorphose myself into a beautiful butterfly.

The universe overhear your thoughts and guides you to achieve it. I’m an insignificant creature with a curious soul, if I could fill the gap in universe with my thoughts and actions, then it will work for everyone.

Because I figured out, for the universe to conspire you, you should conspire the universe first. YOU, should ask the universe what you seek. Ask for your dreams to come true. Just jot it down in your diary. It’s like ordering a product online, once you purchase the item, you know that you will get it on your house door. Why? Because you believe it.

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Ask the universe for anything you need and BELIEVE that you will get it. BELIEVE is a strong word, when it stings you, you won’t believe the miracles happening to you.

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I never wrote my story.  I believed I could . See for yourself know, my journey from the dumbest student to an author.

As always, thanks for reading.

Sisira

Karma is a Boomerang

I helped someone, when literally no one was willing to do it. I was with her, backed her, skipped my sleep and took a toll on my physical health.

Then there came a time, where I was alone, not sure what to do, panicked, confused and helpless. She saw me and knew what I was going through.

She fled and all I felt is a chill.

Harsh reality of life is some people are toxic. They rip the heart out of you. They smile hiding their fangs. They take advantage of you for being nice.

Trust is a complex word. If you trust someone you either get a friend or a lesson for life.

This is a lesson I have learned.

Make sure you play this unfair game of life without hurting yourself.

Love yourself and care yourself.

And forgive the person who tried to snatch the happiness out of you.

Because KARMA is a bitch. It strikes one instantly .

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I have seen her in worse situation, after her betrayal, have seen her crying all broken.

But, it’s not the time to take vengeance. Some people learn to take vengeance slowly. I am one among them.

Again I extended a hand to her and GUESS WHAT ?

Again I ended up hurting myself :<

I wanted to say, some people are not meant to be in your life. If you get that hint, burn the bridges without a doubt. Cut the friendship, it’s going to help you in a long run. 

This will offer you more happiness and peace of mind.

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You are the one responsible for your happiness. Don’t let any other soul to extinguish it. 

Be happy and have sparkles in you day ­♥♥♥♥

Thanks for reading.

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Shine Like a Star.

Stars were sprinkled in the blushing light of moon. When they shined, they showered hopes to many…..

 

Ever watched the night sky?

Not the night sky you view from a metropolitan city dumped with dust and expressionless black. I’m talking about the real night sky, sowed with tiny twinkling stars around a gorgeously glowing moon.

 

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It feels so good to watch night sky.

The comets that wave to us and disappears unknowingly. The mystic ambiance. Mysteries in air.The sound of crickets.The branches of trees as silhouettes.

I was mind-fucked when I came to know that the twinkling light of stars travel many light-years to reach earth. That this light is old that not even our grandparents were born when it was first formed inside the core of a star.

It astonished me.

Are those light born billions of years before just to visit me, this day, this night?

This light traveled zillions of distances. The light from the past. A past as old as the origin of sun or maybe more.

When you see the starlight, you are literally seeing the past.

Maybe the star from which the light came is dead by now. But you never know.

The whole life is an illusion. You can’t define past and future. All you know is this is true because you live in the moment.

Ignite knowledge and happiness in others with your inner light, in this moment.

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Make this moment cherishing and do all awesome stuffs.

Go out and meet new people.

Extend a hand to someone to in need.

Finish that book you once started reading.

Hug your friends when they least expect it.

Visit your grandparents

Celebrate small successes.

Walk and talk confidently.

Seize the moment.

Because once you will look back and will regret for things that you haven’t done. Do it now. It will bring goodness to people in a very distant future. People whom you have never met.

Make sure you shine like a star. Have sparkles in your day.

 

Thanks for reading 🙂

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